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Kirk Van Houten
02:38
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I got my second bottle down, i raise my glass up high
I would like to make a toast, to drinking on my own
I’ll pour myself another shot of my homemade blend
My secret recipe, to stop fearing future pain
There’s so much i regret, like all the things i never said
all my thoughts, all my plans, get stuck, inside my head
So i pour myself another shot and I stay up late
I notice when i wake up, everything’s still the same
I’m in misery
I’m a tragedy
A catastrophe
Nothing good about me
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I’m alone again, with all my friends
We talk a lot, but say so little
We’re all just hearing, without listening
Endless conversations lead to pointless of non-versations
My tired eyes hide a restless mind
if you need me, you can find me somewhere inside my head
I keep close to my biggest threats
When i fall down hard and bust my skull wide open
just let me be, i don’t want you to see
these demons in my head
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Big Worthless Nothing
02:49
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Fill this dirty glass, fill it up right to the brim and keep em coming
I can taste the poison, going slowly through my veins
oh god it feels so good, oh god it feels so good
You won’t find any answers tonight
they are not buried at the bottom of a bottle
well i’m just drinking to forget, all these dark thoughts in my head
i wanna know what it’s like to feel alright
I focus on my breathing, focus on my heart beating
but i feel the panic, coming over me
my mind is wide awake, what mistakes did i make
Does it get any better than this?
i wanna know what it’s like to feel alright
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Cold Stone Home
02:30
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Do you want this picture we took six years ago
or do i just throw it away
all the drunken words i’ve said, they should have stayed inside my head
I try to stand but i fall down
i don’t know who i am right now
the only thing i really know
this place no longer feels like home
We did our best to save our home
but lately i’ve never felt more alone
defeated words fill up the room and you’ve got that blank stare in your eyes
we’re both so tired, we’re both so tired
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Forever A Champ
02:57
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You roam the streets with your six cans
and a pack of smokes you find somewhere
try to get some sleep on a park bench
till the cops make you leave and go someplace else
You pull your hat as low as you can
so they can’t see you and pretend
that they really know you, you can’t stand
their crooked smiles and their vicious laughs
You were something, reduced to nothing
You were born, born to lose it all
My shoe is off, my foot is cold
i have a bird that i like to hold
my hat is old, my teeth are gold
and all of the lies that i have told
Life tends to kick you while you’re still down
you might be broken but all heals with time
the future won’t be as bright, when all you crave is a spotlight
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Radiant Kid
02:48
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I smile to hide the pain, it’s like i’m always standing in the rain
I’m not strong enough to be the one you want me to be
Just don’t expect too much from me
I am you cancer, i am you cardiac arrest
Once you care you’re fucked, it’s time to selfdestruct
I’m not strong enough to be the one you want me to be
Just don’t expect too much from me
I am you cancer, i am you cardiac arrest
It doesn’t matter where i look, the direction’s all the same
Slow and steady, i’m going down, i’m going down again
And can you tell me, can you tell me, what’s the point of anything
I can’t help it, i can’t help it, i’m going down again
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Cormorant Tree
02:46
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the soaring highs and the crushing lows
are something different from the monotone
that i’ve been living in for the last couple of weeks
My eyes are closed but i don’t sleep,
my shoulders crack and my ribcage creaks
and there’s a voice accusing me,
that i’m neglecting all that i hold dear
Let’s talk about this…
as I broke down like a branch in december,
can you remember the last time you felt alive
I blossomed all through my early twenties
can you pinpoint the moment, when you start to burn out
Since when have i been spending my life in overtime?
cause i spend days in my headphones and nights in my head
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110%
02:05
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Gimme coke, gimme dope, gimme weed
gimme methyleendioxymethamfetamine
to sedate, to erase, to create
to make me stop hating this place
Gimme pills, gimme thrills and let’s chill
an illegal rave in between the fields
Get high or low, i don’t give a fuck baby let’s go
I need you to fuck me up
I am a fucking sledgehammer and everything’s a nail
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Poutsy Gorgan
01:55
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I hate the words coming out of my mouth, and i hate the feeling i’m not good enough
in case you haven’t heard, everything has gotten worse
and don’t you think it’s strange, that i’m so afraid that nothing will ever change
I just wanna be, anybody but me
So many nights i lied awake and never knew the reason
It’s time to get up and go to work when you reach 20.000 sheep and don’t you think it’s strange, that i’m so afraid that nothing will ever change
Don’t wanna hear, don’t wanna see, don’t wanna feel
i won’t admit that this is real
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6 Pack Macho Man
02:11
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I watch the sunrise, with bloodshot eyes
I watch the sunset with new thoughts to forget
It’s time for drinking again, who know how this night will end
Two beers please, two shots next
Pour me another drink and i’ll say what i think
Fuck your authority, whoops, there goes my dignity
It’s time for drinking again, who know how this night will end
Two beers please, two shots next
I’m on my hands and knees, where are my fucking keys
Dear god, please lead the way or maybe i should stay?
It’s time for drinking again, who know how this night will end
Two beers please, two shots next
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Pensées Noires
00:49
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I need a doctor, i need a shrink
so i can figure out, the way i think
cause i’ve got dark thoughts
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Do Not Resuscitate
03:03
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Don’t wanna die of old age,
i wanna feel my system fail
i wanna feel my heartbeat fade away
Choke on the blood i’m coughing up
and i’ll enjoy it with a smile
I can’t stand another lonely night
I wanna die of a heartattack
Pain in my left arm and my chest
Don’t even dare to try and bring me back
i wanna die of a heartattack
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